i really wish that i meant something to somebody. i feel sometimes like i barely register on my parents/familys radar…i do realise that my point of view is biased, and coloured by my own lack of confidence and belief in myself.
the one person who used to show an active interest is no longer with us ( and that was possibly the most depressing sentence i think i’ve ever written).
truth be told, i’ve felt miserable all day and the only thing that i feel is worth ‘bragging’ about is that i mowed most of the grass in the back garden – i did a good deed for someone.
i’m not in a good frame of mind tonight – i best leave it here before i say something i regret.